A friend said to me this week, "Anna - I'm really good at internalizing my conflict." So am I. I've started several posts over the course of the past few months and haven't been able to push the "Publish Post" button. Either, I felt it didn't do someone justice or I just decided that, in the end, I didn't want to publicly share what was going on in my life.
So, I guess a good re-cap on what's happened from April - I found out my New Year's Eve this past year changed a good friendship in a negative way (but just found this out a short while ago). What's ironically harder on me is the fact that I'm not terribly sad to see this person go. Friendships remind me of what my dad tells me of stocks - "Anna, if your stock has dropped 25% and you're receiving no return, then it's time to cut your losses and sell." Sometimes there's that point with friendships, right? If you're putting forth effort and getting 25% returned effort, perhaps it's time to cut your losses and move on? I'm not really sure where that line is, to be honest. At what point do you give up and walk away to protect your own sanity? After hearing what happened on NYE, I know that regardless of what little return I felt I was receiving in the friendship, it was time to walk away.
BUT, after finding this out - through the great help of my lovely sister-in-law - I've started going to a new small group. And get this: they have a nice mix of married and single ladies, they're all close to my age, and I feel comfortable there. Awesome! Granted, it's in Dallas, but I'm at the point where I need fellowship. If I have to drive to Dallas for that - so be it. I'll survive.
On another note - I recently had my one year anniversary at my job! Yeah!! Feels good to work at a place like that. I feel challenged and capable (some days) and I feel there's a good future.
I'm planning a vacation. I'm starting to get that worn out feeling. My schedule stays pretty busy throughout the week. And I need to get out of Arlington...well Texas, even. I'm hopeful the friend I'm planning this with will indeed be able to go.
Hmm let's see what else has been going on? Doing a cake decorating class. Will have one of my first student loans paid off within the next few months. Life is just kind of coasting along.
Finally, a quick shout out to my amazing dad. I got my sense of humor and math skills from him and couldn't ask for a better dad. Love you and am so so so glad you weren't taken from me four years ago. You are so precious.
