A New Season

Wow - the Lord does some amazing things. In me, no less. I spent several days fretting over this offer for reconciliation. What would be the outcome? But, even after accepting, I was still mostly confident I made the right choice. Even walking into something potentially disastrous, I knew I was being obedient.  The Lord directed me to a verse through a book I'm reading.


"He was supreme in the beginning and—leading the resurrection parade—he is supreme in the end. From beginning to end he's there, towering far above everything, everyone. So spacious is he, so roomy, that everything of God finds its proper place in him without crowding. Not only that, but all the broken and dislocated pieces of the universe—people and things, animals and atoms—get properly fixed and fit together in vibrant harmonies, all because of his death, his blood that poured down from the cross." - Colossians 1: 18-20


This spoke deeply to me - perhaps because it became more real to me than about just my narrowed view of the situation I was in. We are all broken, but He promises to fix us - in simple terms. My heart sings at that thought. I won't be broken forever. But, this relationship wouldn't be broken forever. This never guaranteed a specific outcome, but brought a sense of hope.


I will say - I knew for a long time that the Lord promised reconciliation for this specific friendship. And, I gave up on Him following through. I thought I missed it and that all those times I thought I heard Him whisper his promise of fixing what was broken or directing to me to verses ended up being me wanting a specific outcome. Despite my failure to trust that He would fulfill His promise within His timing, He fulfilled it without me believing He would. That is humbling, friends.


I will say, never has any meeting with a friend been so divinely constructed. The Lord was clearly in all of it for me. It happened in the way that spoke appropriately to my heart. And, as we begin inching our way back towards friendship, I am comfortable and happy with this, albeit extremely cautious. After, our meeting, I went back to praying and felt like the Lord told me, "Your show of grace to this friend will be just a small representation of My Grace." Wow.


He showed me, that I did not take the easy way out - I chose, in some ways, the more difficult path. And, that it will have its fair share of challenges, but will primarily be a test in patience. He has done something He has never done before: very clearly stated that I'm in a new season. In the past they've kind of just blended from one to the next, but He specifically drew a line. It is different going forward. I am incredibly humbled and sufficiently challenged.