The past 5 days or so, the Lord has been revealing a lot to me - mostly about contentment. Contentment with who I am as a person, but more importantly contentment in Jesus. Some days I wonder - what exactly does that look like?
This morning during my quiet time I prayed, "Lord, I worship you for who you are, not what you've done for me. Even if you took everything away from me, it would be hard and I may not understand, but I would still have to say you are good." He is good. I said that probably 20 times in my prayer this morning. He is good. That needs no qualifier - it's just who He is, forever and always. I pray that soaks so deeply in my heart that I never waver in believing that.
So, when I read this post, it only echoed everything in my heart this weekend. I don't know the author of this blog, but man, she has some insight. I've discussed this a lot with several close friends of mine, and it really takes Jesus transforming your heart to get to a place where you can accept that He is enough. In so many ways I'm not there, but I'm praying the Lord leads me to that place. I don't want to live out my singleness waiting for my life to "begin" once I get married. It doesn't. It's happening right now and I want my life - single or married - to be full.
I'm not missing out on anything in this season. That is also a statement that needs no qualifier - no one can define for me the life I'm supposed to have at 25. I'm not missing out on the life the Lord has led me into for now. And, when the time is right, I will enter another season. What will that one hold? I don't know. But, for now, I'm glad to be in this challenging yet beautiful time with the Lord.
Here's the blog - absolutely worth the five minute read.